Over past weeks, as the countdown clock gets closer to zero, I’ve started to become really, really scared, if not terrified of what lies ahead – and that is one emotion I didn’t really expect to be experiencing!
As you would have seen in my last post, we have ticked a bunch of things off our pre-launch checklist. This means that day by day we are getting closer to truly being able to leave. And whilst that is incredibly exciting, I’ve just discovered it’s incredibly scary as well!
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a planner. I am a Mum, a Wife and a business owner, with a Hubby that works away. Juggling all of that and doing it well takes a lot of planning. We have a schedule, and we stick to it – not because we can’t live without it, but simply because things just work better when we do.
I like to know what is happening. I like to feel organised. I like to feel in control! (OK, I’m a control freak!! LOL)
So now, considering all of that, as I ‘try’ to get ready for our trip I am finding it near impossible to plan. How do you plan for things you know nothing about?
The more I research, the more I realise how much I don’t know.
* I don’t know where we are going
* I don’t know where we will stay
* I don’t know how we’ll make friends
* I don’t know if we’ll enjoy it
* I don’t know what to pack
* I don’t know what a ‘normal’ day will be
Doesn’t sound like much fun does it!
Everything I know and love will be thousands of miles away. Nothing will be familiar and I won’t know anyone. The closer we get, the more I picture the day we leave – and the more scared I get.
Luckily for me though, I have recently discovered some amazing communities on Facebook, full of families just like ours. Some are getting ready to go, some have just left and others have been travelling for years. I am truly blown away by the fact that there is this whole other way of life that we never knew about – and thrilled that they have been so incredibly welcoming!
And you know what I’ve discovered? The way I’m feeling is completely and utterly normal. And that makes me feel OK!
Taking that leap and getting on the first plane is one of the hardest things you will ever do. It is terrifyingly gut wrenching, BUT, it will be one of the most amazing experiences of your life!
I’ve decided it is ok to be scared. All of the fears I’ve mentioned above are exactly the reasons I want to do this. It is the unknown that will create unforgettable experiences.
Not planning is ok! (Well that’s what I keep telling myself). Living each day as it comes, waking to a new adventure, and having the freedom to choose – that is the whole point of this adventure. And the structured, over-committed, demanding life that we have been living for too long, is exactly why we are hoping to avoid. Life is just too short!
And when all is said and done, it is exactly because I have this fear that I know this experience will be the life changing adventure I want it to be.
Would you be scared? Or am I just being a sook? Leave a comment!
Until next time